How my son’s dislike for soccer will help him succeed in life

It’s soccer mom day. The funny thing is, my son hates soccer. I told him that soccer is teaching him a few things: team spirit, how to enjoy the great outdoors, and learning how to do something successfully that you really, really don’t want to do.

When my child is a 45-year-old exec, faced with a difficult challenge, he’ll do what he has to do because he’ll know the outcome will be beneficial to everyone — despite not enjoying the process.

Sometimes in life we need to do things we don’t like in order to be more successful. In 2017 I had to breakup with myself and move out of my boyfriend’s house in order to lead a happier life. I didn’t want to face the fact that the man I had moved in with was an emotional scam artist, but I did. And then I did what I had to do and moved out.

Today my son will be playing soccer — even though he doesnt want to. Afterward, he’ll be getting a new (somewhat cheaper lol) Mac laptop 💻 with some of my tax return. He doesn’t know this yet, but I can tell you he’ll be thrilled that he made the effort today. Because he’ll know that if he didn’t make the effort, he would have gotten no reward.

And that, my dear friends, is what I learned from life.

Xoxo

-1YoS

So true

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I used to think I needed a year. After one year I realized I needed a lifetime.

I used to think I wasn’t good enough, and had to be perfect. Now I realize being perfect won’t make all those schmucks good enough for me.

The world isn’t what I thought it was.

LOL

xoxo
-1Yos

Unhealthy Men Like Unavailable Women

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I literally wore this outfit today

Match.com leaves your profile online even after you’ve gone through the deletion process. I know this because years ago I deleted my profile and received the “your profile is deleted, but will be on display until…” reply. I wasn’t happy about it. I wanted the profile down immediately. If it’s still on display, it’s not really deleted, is it?

Match not only didn’t remove my profile when I wanted it to, but it continued to slam me with notifications and emails. I was then forced to change my profile to reflect that I’m no longer willing to be in the dating game, especially on Match.com. “This profile has been deleted,” I wrote. “Please don’t contact me.” Yet I was still slammed with countless emails from guys who either didn’t read my profile, or thought I’d be a fun challenge. Either way, it only proved they were mentally unhealthy.

Therapy_CanWeTalkI had a brief discussion with my then-therapist about this.

“If they’re trying to contact me,” I began, “despite me explaining the situation and vividly expressing that I’m no longer interested in dating—isn’t it really just revealing their unwillingness to get involved with someone who is available?” I asked. Yes, the therapist agreed.

“So even if their profile seems solid,” I continued, “I should probably still not bother because they’re trying to get involved with an emotionally unavailable girl, yes?” Yes, the therapist agreed again.

Hot damn, I thought, Men are just like us. They want to get involved with unavailable women. They may not even realize it themselves, we concluded. It may all be on a subconscious level.

Good God, I thought. I sat back in shock for a minute, proud of myself for the revelation, humored that I could finally see the Matrix, but dismayed over the reality of it all. Logically speaking, the theory actually proves that men who fight for their women are actually mentally unhealthy.

Soak that in. How many of us have wanted our guy to fight for us in some manner or another? So in essence, do we want them to be mentally unhealthy?

My mind was spinning. I left the therapist’s office feeling defeated. I thought about the MarriedGuy who went back to his unstable wife, “fighting” to make his marriage work. Sad, I thought, but good riddance. I realized that if he was willing to take-back someone who was that unhealthy, he couldn’t possibly be healthy enough for me. And I realized as my own self-awareness and self-assurance grew, the dating pool shrank. Significantly.

I crossed New York City’s midtown streets on my way back to work,  still thinking about how the dating pool was becoming nothing more than a dried-up puddle. The thought repeated in my mind. Unhealthy men like unavailable women.

In all honesty, women do the same thing. My friends and I clocked plenty of hours chasing unavailable men. So we can’t sit-back and say it’s just the men. It’s everyone. But that doesn’t mean I have to tolerate it.

Unstable men like unavailable women. The thought persisted. I started wondering if the level of unavailability in women mattered. What if a women just didn’t want to get involved because she wanted to live her life for a while? There should be a difference between busy women and women who blatantly say “hell no,” right?

My solution is to find out. I’ve been researching all the things that I’ve wanted to do over the years, but never had time for. While my original “1 Year of Single” has been over for a few years now, I still want to use my 1-year, yet this time it’ll be 1 Year of Rediscovery. 1 year of rediscovering myself and things I love to do. Have you ever spent a specific amount of time purposely rediscovering yourself? That’s what I’ll be doing. And I guarantee, it won’t include spending time on Match.com.

xoxo
-1Yos

 

2018. Time to get a hobby.

30711781_10215838221410766_4156290545838194688_n.jpgA few days ago my 11-year-old son told me I should think about getting a hobby. If I wasn’t so shocked, I would have LOL. “Honey,” I said, “In the last few years, we’ve moved in with my boyfriend, I’ve broken up with myself*, then moved out from my boyfriend’s. I’ve had two major surgeries, you’ve moved schools twice, my job moved to another state, then I changed jobs. I’m exhausted.” Then I added thoughtfully, “I’ve only just started to come out of the haze now.” My son did an “Oh… true…” nod and continued what he was doing with no further interest in the subject.

I’ve always rolled my eyes at blogs and broadcasts that were titled, “Where have I been?” It assumes that every person reading their headline has been dying to know what happened to that blogger and why they’ve been absent. I doubt anyone really cared. If the blogger was actually successful enough, the question of their absence would have been answered by the public long before the blogger realized it was even an issue.

And still – here I am, thinking I should write a “Where have I been?” blog. No one cares. I don’t even care enough about the last few years enough to write about them. Lol > But what I can tell you – or what I’d rather tell you – is what I’ve learned along the way. I’ve learned so much. And I want to tell you about my experiences. Both good and bad. What worked along the way, and what didn’t work.

I’m so happy to be back. Ironically, after all of the shenanigans of 2017, I’m so ecstatic that I can simply call it a “challenging” year. It was probably the most difficult year I’ve ever had, and yet I only want to call it “challenging.” Why? Probably because the previous 45 years before that were what helped me get through 2017.

Let me tell you about it.

Welcome to my not-so-new hobby: 1YearOfSingle.

 

I love Kaycee_Serenity

I love when folks chat with me on the side. Kaycee had picked me up and right away said hi. She’s like a lot of us: single and a bit dismayed at how we were with a façade for too long. But like K, we come out of it and move on as best we can. And while none of us are perfect, we at least make the attempt to be true to ourselves.

Keep on singin’ your song, Kaycee, you’re a star in my book!