Where the hell have I been? I feel like I turned on Auto Pilot for the last few weeks and have been coasting through time with my feet up, throwing back a bottle of allergy meds.
I’m on overload. I’ve lost focus on myself and yet I feel like I’m also more introverted than I’ve been in a long time. I’ve piled on a few more things in my life because – in true Capricorn fashion – I can’t sit still.
I’m also thinking about my ex too much. Its very unhealthy and frankly makes me quite annoyed. And yet at the same time, I can’t help but feel empathy for him because of everything I’ve been through with my and my other friends’ dysfunctional exes.
This is causing a conundrum. I want to help him and yet I want to stay far the hell away from his situation as humanly possible. The problem is that I am human, and it’s been not possible to abandon him. I have a problem abandoning people in need because I’ve been abandoned since childhood.
I need to refocus. I need to find a way to refocus. And I need to give myself credit for what I do accomplish for myself.